Accepting Pain
One Shot
husks Soraya Margarita Vargas
The holidays for me are like any day of the year as long to stop believing in Santa Claus, the Three Kings, and all that nonsense. I remember that for me was the best time of year, until after you stop believing to all that when I was 5, however, became the worst of times, the most painful, the saddest, the horrible of all, so I correct is not like any day of the year is the worst day of the year as the come relive the pain, loneliness, loss, fear, and desire to not be here. But I'm such a coward that I have not had the courage to end this thing called life, ja, life, beautiful life of mine, where only survive, I get up every morning, breathe because the body requires and I have my days the same routine, monotony, as the deep sadness that overwhelms me I carry a cross.
So every Christmas not only led to cost, but I relive the pain, as was living in hell right now. Well, that's how I felt on 24 December two years ago, had the perfect life, the family dream, a wonderful husband, a baby who was the light of my life, and happiness was present in every moment of my life but lost, so I curse every day life, take away the most precious thing he possessed. So today, December 24, I'm in a house well away from the city as people think I can celebrate with them as usual, as noted none have lost what I lost, since that damn day every December 24 my parents and friends think that the best way to forget is celebrating as if I could be happy after that, as if I could celebrate the day I lost my life. Yes, my life, since that fateful day I died, only that human remains were left in this ugly world, so I go away, will not sustain the same torture of previous years would not, that's why I'm in this hut away from civilization, away from the world.
my phone in the dining room eludes me for my thoughts, the sound repeatedly. God, I just do not realize that I am not interested in any of that bullshit, truth I'm interested in not even know who he is, I'll leave it until it sounds crazy, but as there is no happiness for me resumes, God, no doubt off is the best solution.
take my phone with the intention of turning it off and see the time display, 7:22 pm, well I think trying to sleep would be good, so this fateful day just once.
I turn off the annoying appliance and I rise to address the top floor where the bedroom. In my travels I can appreciate the place, it is certainly beautiful, all in old wood that gives it that elegant touch mysterious at all, if my life was not as much junk could certainly enjoy this site.
heard a shot, this one is too much, till I have to face a madman or something. Well it would be a dignified way to die. God, even that I have developed, black humor, but really is not normal, I can not rest if I find out that is a curse because I have to be as me.
I turn to the main gate which is where the sound comes, the more I come stronger. God, what shall I do? If even I have to defend myself, I see the place to see if they meet I can hurt someone if necessary. Beside the fireplace there which I guess is a poker, I could serve, I take it and head to the entrance.
Damn my curiosity, it would be easier if it is you want to come find me in my bed asleep and if your intention is to kill me to do and so I avoid the drama. But no, I always face things like that time I had to see the bodies, did not let the bury without seeing them, and it was worse. If I had not done the last memory would have their beautiful faces were perfect, without harm, brimming with happiness, but no, to see that change. Observe their faces and mangled bodies, where the only thing I caught was an expression of horror and fear and despair my little man who loved being unable to save them. I do not know if it's true or just a figment of my imagination but that is all with me every day.
The incessant sound brings me back to the present, without further open the door and there on the threshold of this is the most beautiful creature I've seen. Everything was illuminated by the moonlight but it was enough to see the man standing at the door, but what struck me was that in that pretty face was more red eyes and looked at me with malice. Furthermore, the sneer on his face just told me he was in danger, but the strangest thing is that he feared, however those intense ruby \u200b\u200beyes dismembered me and I tied at the same time.
He stayed there, standing, without moving a muscle of his body. Minutes seemed like hours for me, but after that moment I walk toward me, decisively and in that moment I understood that there was no salvation for me, this being achieved by making me what I wanted and I was not going to help. So I dropped my hands improvised weapon, producing a thud. And then listen to the most beautiful melodies, he was, was her voice, she spoke.
- If you are an amazing creature, are the first that does not run from me because his instincts survivor's alert on the end that awaits them if they stay. "He said and I rather than scare or run away left me there, standing as if waiting to see what happened.
- That makes me wonder, if you're not what I've been looking for and if I change the ending that was meant for you.
not understand what he meant by that, so I just stood there, not knowing what to do. Waiting to see what their intentions but also in a trance as her voice was unique, unimaginable, something beautiful and I do not want to stop listening.
- What do you mean? - Said in a firm voice, although I felt something inside began to loosen up, and was not afraid.
- Quiet Madelyne, first see how you react to what I have to say and see if worth it. - Is that I should have felt bad, but becomes curious and do not let other feeling boils inside me. Also I realized that what would happen now would define my destiny.
- Madelyne Exactly my dear, what happens from now on will define your destiny .- said continuing with my thoughts, and I realized that I had called my name twice.
- ... .. How? - Raise a hand to not continue.
- That you will know in due time, for now I think this is not the place to have this talk, it's not that I bothered to stand, but I'm sure in a while you complain.
I took her in his arms and supernatural speed took me into the room. I laid in bed very gently as if it were made of porcelain and he sat in a cabinet section.
- Ok, since these comfortable going to talk about, well I speak and you hear , and eventually were to take your decision .- said that beautiful voice that I could not ignore.
- first thing you need to know is that I am not like you .- started talking and at that moment all my focus turned to him and what he would say. - I'm not even human, my name is Adriel, more than 500 years ago coming to this world as human as you, "he continued with his story, his life and I listened attentively.
- At 22, I become what I am being, which today I call father. So I became this being repúgnate that to survive it to consume blood, preferably human. I came to this place with the sole intention to become my food and so prove to my sister who was wrong, but when they arrive and see that I feared I ask if she was right and the companion were more than 500 years ago I'm looking for. When I see you standing there at the door without running or screaming in fear to me, if you know what I mean but I at this moment what are demonstrating. That is, everything I said and still do not scream or intestate escape, it seems like you're listening to the most beautiful in the world. Your mind is a group of emotions, but none of them is fear or disgust to me, for that reason I could not kill you, I had to ascertain whether they are my partner. "His eyes were staring at me, smiling pleased.
"My operator Bryant years after his partner found Celene, so for 400 years they are my parents, with the passage of time my family was extended with the arrival of my brothers as we call it, in the same way we did and I Celene. The question that your mind is simple, make it aloud .- and I said I did not really know why.
- Are you a vampire or something? I asked, feeling stupid. That told me he could not be real, who believed in these stories, but something told me I was not lying, that is, that this being who stood before me there was a human being, and could be hurt if he wished. But I was not moved, it was as if from the moment I saw him he became my gravity, wrapped me in its magnetic field and it was he who kept me on the ground. The gave me the most beautiful of smiles, but his eyes lit up with her and answered.
- I see you're having trouble taking what I really know, but the rational side says is a lie. Yes, I am a vampire. "He said as if talking about the weather and not the fact that it is telling me is one who drinks blood.
- But, is that this is impossible. By God, we are in full century, these are comic right? I asked, hoping that I said it was hidden camera or something, because for me everything he had said was beginning to take its toll on me and becoming a truth rather than the fallacy that era, and needed someone told me to stop thinking about stupid things and it was a joke.
- is not a cartoon and are not hidden camera, so it leaves a logic aside, it is more we will show you with facts what I say. "He got up, took me in his arms and in a blink was not in the safety of the cabin, was in the woods in the cold darkness, but I did not feel afraid, because something told me that I should be careful, irrational, right?
- Ok, how about a force approved? - I did not understand that concerned, until I saw his hands tore a huge tree and hurled against each other, breaking down as 10 more, so in that moment I gave up, logic says the devil and I let go of my irrational thoughts, Adriel is a vampire.
- Well, as they return convinced, if you're a long time to die out here hypothermia before I need an answer and give it to me before midnight, said this was the same, I picked her up and in a blink I was in bed again and he on the sofa section.
- why I said you had to give an answer before midnight? I asked, had left me intrigued.
- Because I need it, "he said, knew there was something more but if I had learned is that sometimes it is better to let things go, and maybe later it was easier to find an answer. In that instant he smiled, and did not understand it, so she let him go and decided to ask something else, damn curiosity.
- How do you know what I think? I asked because since we started this strange conversation I answer things without my say out loud.
- I can read the minds of people, of any, they are thinking every times while in my range, and a radio wave. "He said and turned to give me the most beautiful of smiles.
So he continued to talk about his life, his family told me they were 5 members, foster parents so to speak, and his two brothers as they called, who were also partners, so I understood his desire to find someone. He was alone, told me that some of them were special as he, his sister could see flashes of the past and future, and his mother could do that love prevails over all, said her brother had some ability to fly but he considered a gift to us and his father make changes in people. All this was great information, but still manage to get my own conclusions, so I went back to my questioning.
- Then I saw your sister? I asked.
- If he answered.
- So you know what my decision?
- No, I do not know if what he saw happen or not, or if it was something that should pass and the opportunity was lost, I told you I came here just to prove him wrong.
- "He saw me being like you?
- Not exactly, she saw you in my life, just do not know whether human being or a my kind.
- What do you, that your partner is still human or vampire, or not I want in your life? - ask being scared about the answer.
- think he'd be here if you do not want in my life was not a question was a statement. "Just want you in my life if you so wish, of course being like me, in equal conditions. I know it's selfish, I'm asking, but is a monster that I am selfish and soulless, it is my nature. He smiled bitterly
- 're not a soulless monster, but my question is why do you think it would be like you? - Asked knowing the answer.
- Because not want your life. "Sure enough, I do not want my life.
- What will I earn to live forever? Only suffer forever .- I said feeling the anger and pain inside me boil.
- I will make you happy .- said
- How do you do? I do not know, as you want to be with me. I'm broken inside you know? He snapped in anger, do not know why I said that, I just wanted you to know that I could not offer anything.
- Then two of us, you suffer because we lose people and I loved it I lost everything and on top I have lived over 500 years in solitude. Not the same pain I have suffered for 500 years and you only two and yet I'm willing to try.
Not knowing when I began to mourn and cry among my revote something inside me, what I earned to stay and live this life empty, which will never be happy? Is widespread evidence that will not go back to life, and my face will not smile anymore, and here in front of me is the most perfect, giving me the opportunity to begin again a new life away from all and all, and while you may never forget.
At this moment I began to accept my pain, my fears, my fears, my pains, and understand that everything happens for a reason, because there is asking him to accompany him for all eternity, that means he has not refused to be happy. Why do you refuse me, a mere mortal, to be happy? When my life was over, if he will live forever, and you may never have peace if I am not in your hand, it has been denied? at that moment I realized I should do, but first had to ask you something.
- Why do you think I'll make you happy? - Asked quietly, refusing to believe that could give me an answer.
- Because you are unique, I have knowing you three hours, and I know that I'm part of you. Because when you do you give unconditionally, because when you love what you do without fear and that is why we still suffer because you love them even though they are no longer sure .- said, and in that moment of doubt, fear, or pain was gone.
- Why should you be before midnight? -Not that I really cared, the decision is made, but curiosity prevails.
- Because I want to leave everything behind, Today marks two years your sadness, and I will not suffer another minute, "I say letting completely satisfied because I realized that if I could be happy.
- Ok, I agree, saying that, he slowly approached me, as if waiting to me to repent, to see if there was any doubt, but there was, was completely sure I wanted to share my days at his side. He came to me in the dark, hugged me, put his lips to my ear and whisper.
- Hurt, but I promise you will be the last pain I feel and you accept. Welcome to this new life, said that fit his teeth into my neck and I felt pain, but also hope that my life would be different and full now, and I realized that this would be my last Christmas Dolorosa, so let me to carry him and the pain to happiness.
FIN
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